i'm so mentally ill right now that i am scaring people away like crazy. i get it completely. i do. i went from mania to ptsd back to mania and now i'm sleeping 20 hours a day and the poor wonderpups are paying the price for it all. and that is… Read full post »

CONFESSION first and then Update: okay, well, those who read me know that i've been all into the fact that i'm a jewy Jew and where are the other Jews on here and such. well, i have a huge confession to make. when i am agitated, and there's been a lot… Read full post »

UPDATE OF THE UPDATE: i no longer feel the way i was feeling when i wrote the old part of this post. i've let go of the EP/Cover/Ratings shit, so i don't need any more advice and such on that count. okay, guys? not that i'm not grateful for all the… Read full post »

okay, this is a story that is really about how not to meet or choose your future husband. it worked out for me, except for the sad death part that will not be discussed in this piece. it was early 1990s and i was reaching the end of my 'ho-ishness in So.… Read full post »

(please keep checking back because i will be updating all night with more brilliantly witty remarks and please pass this on to your friends on here because i am an ATTENTION WHORE but i also just plainly LOVE AND LIVE to make people LAUGH.)

because i can play favorites as… Read full post »

my place is once again a pigsty. at least now i know why. well, sort of why, since i've finally been officially diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, which i will hereafter refer to as CFS or Flutigue because of how it makes me feel, which would be great, except that there is… Read full post »

i want to apologize in advance for not reading many posts, if any. i have this battle going with this stupid freaking Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and another immune thang that i can't remember the name of. i know, dangling participle. kiss my freaking ass.  so when i say that i'm sic… Read full post »

because of the fabulous Possible Freaky Purse post on here: http://open.salon.com/blog/middleagedwomanblogging

and this one on here:

http://open.salon.com/blog/verbal_remedy

i decided to offer some of my close to home options!

but before i show you the Possible Purses, i wanted to share some cake.&nb… Read full post »

well, i found the box that contained my photo albums and packs and packs and packs of pics over the ages. still none of either of my husbands, but i will keep looking. for now, because i'm horribly Chronically Fatigued and sick tonight, with high fever and such, i'm posting the best… Read full post »

(and i am one funny freaking bitch. i'm not being an attention whore, for once. this and Part One are a polished chapter of my memoir in progess, Prozac On Paws: The Tale of Three Spayed Females, about recovering from agoraphobia with the help of service dogs for invisible disabilities/psychiatric di… Read full post »

Losing My Looks/When I was a 'Ho. Part One.

“Joke ‘em if they can’t take a f***.”
Robin Williams
“Bisexuality doubles your chance for a date on Saturday night.”
Woody Allen 

(i was blessed and honored to have Feed the Cat link to this piece of mine in a… Read full post »

okay, i was going to do a whole thing about me being a teenager in the late sixties and boycotting lettuce with the best of them and fucking a boy who looked like Mick Jagger under the Washington monument during the Cambodia demonstration where i kept running into Eugene McCarthy and… Read full post »

i've never done something this egomaniacal before. shit, no, i probably have. but i figured out how to scan stuff! i'm a tech idiot, so this is big. i couldn't find photos of Richard, my late husband, which means they are buried in a moving box, one that's too… Read full post »

(i've posted this before, but i'm posting it again because i have several new friends and favorites and because i've been the grateful recipient of a whole lot of human kindness lately. much much much needed kindness since i've had some majorly dark days. i was blessed to talk on the phone… Read full post »

(if you are down in the dumps and this doesn't make you smile even a little, it's time for a meds check. :) this is my new favorite tv show, well, after Flashforward and the Seinfeld reunion coming up on Curb... new york former bad guys rescuing animals??? i mean, what… Read full post »

i've been in an unrelenting depression. i did manage to get to the doctor at the poor people's clinic where i was also able to see the mental health nurse practitioner. got them to up my thyroid med, add in abilify to my crazy woman cocktail. they also pumped up the… Read full post »

the more things stay the same, or that's how it's feeling today. another terrifying tsunami, our leader in Copenhagen and not where he needs to be, war, inequity, pestilence... OS feels like the Small Circle of Friends, the place where people give a shit about what's happening… Read full post »

(if you're new to my blog, please read this instead or in addition. it's my Voice, if you will. or if you haven't read it. it's my first POLISHED chapter of my memoir Prozac On Paws, The Tale of Three Spayed Females, about recovering from agoraphobia with the help of a… Read full post »

when this eventually passes, i will write about it for myself and for those of you who know this awful Noonday Demon (Andrew Solomon) too well. i know it's the deepest of pits because i'm a tv addict extraordinaire and i couldn't even get into the comedy section of the Emmys. i… Read full post »

i needed a tiny break from all the All Joe Wilson, All The Time stuff and the despairing health care predictions. so ta da!!! this pic is Ella Fitzgerald and Cocoa Chanel dressed in their yellow rain ponchos -- ella's wearing the striped cotton sweater that i made for… Read full post »

i don't know what the freak is wrong with me. (i'm trying to cut down on the swearing. apparently i was a longshoreman in a previous life.) so there will be a lot of freaks and carps -- which means crap, but i kept spelling it carp so now crap is… Read full post »