"Will you hold me in your warm embrace, never let me go?" she said to me, a thousand miles away, but seemingly in the room with me.
Technology, isn't it wonderful?
I told her yes, till forever and a day.
Heaven was closing up quickly, the gates were swinging shut, it'd be a million years before the next land rush.
Would we touch the sky in our warm embrace?
Lifeless, but still breathing.
She sighed, that sigh of relief, she would have me, she would drift asleep, the phone still to her ear.
I would never sleep again, the mind wouldn't let me.
I would close my eyes, the darkness was there, like before, but it was not sleep.
I would open my eyes and stare at the walls, counting the specks of dust on the ceiling, before standing and going outside to smoke a cigarette.
Life has this way of making a person wish they were dead, and then alive again, reborn.
A friend's grandmother told me once I was an old soul, born some other time, long ago, the first age, the age where I may have killed to save my true love, the love that has followed me through the time, rebirth, then we would have to refind each other.
If I closed my eyes forever, would it all remain the same?
I wouldn't understand till the next life, or the one after that, a cycle of shame, of hope, would I sleep again, in that other life?
Probably not, the same trip, just a different body.
Would I trust her in that next life, like I did in this one, even though she kept hurting me, pushing me away?
I closed my eyes forever...