Yesterday it rained most of the day. It wasn't exactly cold, but cool enough to remind me of the imminent upcoming change of seasons. Today the sun peeked out for a few short moments but still the rather heavy mood that fell upon me yesterday hangs upon my shoulders.
I'm not one prone to depression; at least not those deep debilitating clinical depressions that many are cursed with. Still though, this funk prevails in my mind and body and now I'm left to figure out how to shake it.
Is it just the weather I wonder?
It's true that this has always been a season that gets me down somewhat. I've always had a hard time letting go of summer, the season I live for. The lazy hazy days and all that. Fishing, baseball and especially just being WARM.
The winters were always brutal around here when I was young. Once when I was a teenager going through all that angst and change it clouded up in October and the sun never once reappeared until March. I swear that's what I remember. Surely it wasn't that bad, right?
But even now in these days of global warming when the weather is much more mild we are still guaranteed 4 months of brown barren landscapes and leafless trees. There's not much of anything pretty to look at outside in this part of the country in winter, the exception being the occasional beautiful snow... that then melts and turns the earth to mud.
And then there's Christmas. Let's face it, Christmas, like TRIX, is for kids. Once I was past the age of 12 or so I began to wonder why we "celebrated" the birth of Jesus Christ (who was supposedly born in the spring time by the way) by going out and buying a bunch of crap for each other, to the delight of the retailers?
Yeah this time of year, gorgeous as it can be can get to me a little.
But on top of that I've been thinking about my role here on OS. How the things I post and the comments I make effect myself and others.
Yesterday before I was even fully awake I blazed a trail to Amy Tuteurs blog. My GOD almighty she was back, and right there on the cover of MY opensalon. What I said in my first comment to her is how I felt, and truth be told I still feel that way, but I became aware more today after reading through several posts and doing some thinking, of how my comments can be perceived by others.
Did I need to take it upon myself to lambast Amy and the editors, even as just of a cause as I perceived it to be? No. No I didn't.
Then on top of that I posted about the whole thing yesterday evening, and as I of course knew it probably would the post became popular and ended up with mega comments and rates. Wow, Trig. Mr. Popularity!
But at what cost? I don't want to be thought of as the OS asshole.
For what it's worth my friends, I plan on remaining here and doing my little TRIG blog (unless the big K pulls my proverbial plug that is).
However I will be making an attempt to stay out of "the business" of opensalon. I will try to contribute in a positive and hopefully funny way as it seems the humorous side is my niche somewhat. I will continue to read all my friends wonderful posts and leave constructive commentaries and ratings. It's OS karma... read and be read. AND hopefully I will continue to discover more creative people. Nothing could be easier than that really; there are so many to be found here and more coming every day... ahhh, if only there was more time.
I so appreciate all my friends here (wow, I'm starting to feel better already). Peace!!!