Just as I was 

rediscovering joy,

finally feeling

who I am.

Finally seeing myself.

 Just as I was

finally finding

a part of

my heart

I couldn't reach before,

a part of myself

I didn't know.

Just as I began

to explore

my own inspiration,

to know my need

for sentiment,

to feel 

my yearning

for expression.

Just when I

discovered my vision.

Why does this river of disquiet

batter my soul?

It careens into

a whirlpool 

of confusion

flowing from pain,

anger

betrayed by love.

So many words lost;

drowned by a storm

of tears.