This is what I wrote on january 3rd., 2010:

"But here I am starting to write about my attempts to be happy. I know that most people are interested in topics that are a bit different: dark secrets, advice how to make money or how to cook, how to find an amazing lover… Read full post »

Here I am - back on open salon, feeling better, getting over my nervous breakdowns, getting ready and already living in Christmas crazyness. Project 'Wonderland' is comming to an end! Did I achieve a lot internaly? I did! I think I took some real important steps to delirious happiness and someti… Read full post »

Meet me - the psycho.
Meet my Mom - the woman with MS and inability to move normally.
Meet my boys - many guys who find me sexy, want to talk to me, hug me or fuck me. It depends.
Meet my Grandma - woman who helps my Mom when I don't give… Read full post »

And so today I baked a bananna pie! I is I think my first pie. Though I'm not sure, I remember about baking something long time ago. Still, here it it - gorgeous and tasty :)

So here I am - opening the door of kitchen miracle land!

Taste and enjoy,

Alice.… Read full post »

Fix me.
I need to be fixed. I can't believe a person can be this messed up...
sometimes I look at myself and wonder. How did I become this person?

Know who you are,

Alice.

first time: light this new candle. Small but nice thing to do...

          &nbs… Read full post »

Oh yes, I'm on the verge of loosing it. I don't know. It's all such a huge mess. Like I feel the beauty of life and can only breath in a half of it, I don't feel free. Actually, I feel locked up. And the windy heart of mine is about… Read full post »

Hello,
Call me psycho.
I feel like cryin'
Kissin' guys I don't like
Because I'm afraid of not liking anyone at all...
Ridiculous.

Choose wisely,

Alice.

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I always used medium softness toothbrush
I though what's the point of using a soft one
I want to feel that I'm actually brushing my teeth
But today I bought a soft one
And it feels so much better
Like my teeth are loving this soft touch
And they seem cleaner and unharmed...

And I always wanted… Read full post »

I always used medium softness toothbrush
I though what's the point of using a soft one
I want to feel that I'm actually brushing my teeth
But today I bought a soft one
And it feels so much better
Like my teeth are loving this soft touch
And they seem cleaner and unharmed...

And I always wanted… Read full post »

I know I'm very emotional. I get excited or melancholic in a minute, my thoughs take me places and give me feelings that are very very real. And I feel them within all me.

But maybe I'm not that good at showing other people how much I need them, how much I… Read full post »

Imagine this. Imagine every single person you had a crush on or loved in your entire life standing in front of you and asking you to be with them. You have to choose only one. And they all seem so inlove, so beautiful and dressed up to impress your eyes. The… Read full post »

Don't lose your trust, my Love
I'm on the way to turn your life into a paradise of joy
Of dancing fireflies and sparkling stars

Don't lose your trust, my Love
You'll call me and I'll answer you one day
Though I don't know if it's today...

Don't lose your trust, my Love
I'm not crying over missing… Read full post »

Protect your heart, my friend
You only have one beating in your chest
Rushing your blood and keeping your love
Like falling stars from high above
Like lakes and oceans down below
She fills you up with light and glow
That no one else can trully know
But Love, oh Love, you sometimes hurt
And those mistakes I m… Read full post »

I sit here in front of the screen and find my eyes wet. Because I'm worried. I'm worried for all the couples in the world. This connection that they have..no matter how strong- is still fragile. Long talks at night, even when tired, hours of uncontrolled passion and sweet commitement. Please,… Read full post »

How do you break a broken heart?
Is tearfull song enough?
Are Shakespeare words enough?
In legends and in tales
Somehow still in your memory
This taste of mine
Reveals itself
Like wine and apples freshly picked
Just tell me do you think of me from time to time
When rain is falling and the only sound you… Read full post »

One day he'll hear the sound of my Everest-high heels
Not walking away
But comming towards
On a day when I'm ready
They'll sparkle
And my eyes will sparkle
And the smile...

It's so hard to let someone deep inside
To a place so sacred and calm...

But do I seem so distant
Do I seem so unreachable
This red that ma… Read full post »

...And sometimes they say that I'm crazy.
But who can really understand
A native of the Wonderland.

And who can really see it through?
The world of miracles and truth
Exists right here in front of you
Open you eyes and see it too

Come on, dear kid, just take my hand
And let your dreams take us to… Read full post »

...And sometimes they say that I'm crazy.
But who can really understand
A native of the Wonderland.

And who can really see it through?
The world of miracles and truth
Exists right here in front of you
Open you eyes and see it too

Come on, dear kid, just take my hand
And let your dreams take us to… Read full post »

...And sometimes they say that I'm crazy.
But who can really understand
A native of the Wonderland.

And who can really see it through?
The world of miracles and truth
Exists right here in front of you
Open you eyes and see it too

Come on, dear kid, just take my hand
And let your dreams take us to… Read full post »

Be not afraid of winter, my friend
When snow covers the ground
The beautiful and fragile grass
Lays under it and stays alive
So be not afraid
Because grass is not afraid
Though both of you are fragile
Both of you have patience, I know
Be not afraid
The sun keeps shining
And the clouds still float
They go t… Read full post »

When did that happen?
One day you wake up
And all boys around you
Are turned into young men
Who no longer want long soft kisses
And are thinking about sex...
When did people start going to award ceremonies
Dressed in meat?
When did everyone start worshiping
A bunch of over-tanned kids in Jersey?
When did… Read full post »

White silk ribbon in her hair
Childish and stylish headband
A sunflower in his hands
Like two kids they walk in the middle of the street
All eyes on them
Their cold faces and eyes
Burning with passion
Oh they are madly crazy inlove
And they let each other be free
They are fit and believe in healty life

Well..… Read full post »

She's in the other room now. Screaming of pain. I'm sitting here, writing this blog, listening to Taylor Swift and planning to have a nice cup of green tea, also chatting with a guy I like. Can a person be that senseless? Oh, deffinitely.

One of the non-positive but useful things I've learne… Read full post »

Do you know that feeling when everything feels right? Always seek it. Don't settle for just 'ok', try to make things amazing. Because it's proven that amazing is possible.

Feel amazing,

Alice.

First time: watched 'The hot chick'. Not as funny as I thought it would be. Nice, though.  

%IMAG… Read full post »

Sometimes you get this feeling. Emptyness. That you had someone very special in your heart, so deep, that sometimes, when stars would fill the sky and silenlty sparkle, you could hear his breath by your ears, feel that it's his heart rushing your blood, his smell filling the room and it's the… Read full post »