We talked on the telephone every other day and sometimes every day.
We were a million miles apart yet we could feel each other as if we were right there.
Every mornig I woke up and was lonely before I got out of bed.
As time went on, Nina began to be more sad and desperate about everything, us being apart and the unhappiness where she was forced to live.
I needed to hold her as much as she needed me.
We had been so good right from the start.
She was perfect
I wnted to go back to California and do what I felt like doing to them. They deserved it.
There was a part of me like that from being elsewhere.
I knew that would only make everything worse and impossible for us.
There were times when I would just sit there and stare off into nothing, my mind and heart back with Nina.
I didn't know what to do. It was more than just wanting her. It was wanting her out of that miserable life.
She would hear the noises of what the cop would do to her mother and she was frightened.
A couple of times I could hear him yelling and raging.
I remember him twice taking the telephone from Nina and slamming it down.
He didn't want any contact between us ever.
I had become more unhappy than at any time in my life.
I was missing something in my life that was more important to me than anything else.
It would get worse much worse
She was able to call me less often and I couldn't take the chance of calling there. I'd never know who would answer. If I would call and hang up, they'd know and she'd have to hear all their hateful yelling.
After two months went by without any calls or a note from Nina, I couldn't stand it anymore.
I had to see her talk to her hold her.
Now was the time~~
I couldn't drive fast enough and I was so consumed with missing her and thoughts of the way it was when we were together that it was hard to keep my mind on the road.
The first day I made 1200 miles. It just didn't go by fast enough.
I couldn't wait to see her. I wanted to smell her and touch her and feel her. I wanted to hold her and love her and be loved by her.
Sometimes I'd be so lost in these thoughts that I caught myself going off the road.
My body was there in the car yet my heart and mind were already with my woman.
Two days later, I was in Tujunga.
I stayed with my friends.
They were good friends and had known all about us from the last time.
They didn't know Nina without me and, when I got there, they kidded me about coming for her.
Yes, that is exactly what I had in mind~~somehow.
The next day I took a ride past their house. It hadn't been one of the fancier or nicer houses when I had driven past it so many years ago.
It looked deserted.
I drove around the neighborhood for a while and waited till I saw some life or someone moving around.
I never did so I parked right out front.
I was worried yet, I was really pissed about this cop so I didn't give a damn. I was going to find out what was going on with my Nina.
Yes, I still very much felt that she was mine.
I went up to the house and looked in one of the windows.
No car in the driveway or yard.
I went to a couple of the neighbors and found out from one of them that they had just picked up and left one day.
Nobody knew to where.
In those days, if a guy went around a high school and asked some questions, it wasn't like the hysteria of today.
A day later, I went to one of the high schools in the town.
I asked around about her but, noone knew her.
The next day, I went to the other school and waited till they let out for the day.
Again I asked about her.
She wasn't anywhere where I could see her in all those kids.
I asked one of them and she said she knew of her but didn't know her and another girl knew her but wasn't there.
I was getting anxious and wanted to see her right now. I missed her so much and felt that we were so close now.
The next day, I finally found the other girl who knew Nina.
We talked and I found out she knew about us.
It was obvious that I didn't know where she was and this girl was having trouble telling me.
I finally got it all out of her and how to find the woman I loved.
The next day, I bought some flowers~~roses~~we both liked roses.
When I found Nina, there was noone else around.
The two of us were alone.
I sat and talked and talked and cried and told her how much I loved her
How much I always loved her
How much I will alway love her
Then I gently laid the roses on her grave, got up and walked into the void in my heart.
You will always be my love