This is Zanelle with Razor Red hair.   She gets lots of attention in the cyber world of Second Life.  She is an artist with a beautiful environment to work in.   She has lots of things to do and places to go.  She is my alter ego.   Sometimes I feel old compared to her and sometimes I think she is my true spirit but in another body.   A thin, energetic body that can run and bend over easily.  

      I could get lost in my Second Life.  At 63 I have had lots of experiences and being retired I have time to reflect on them.   I wonder at how lucky I am to be here in this beautiful place with a nice fellow.   I know I am very fortunate that my mother isnt more of a pain and takes care of herself at 91.  

   So I need to relax and fill these moments with joy.   I wish I could get paid a little extra money to supplement my retirement tho.  I wonder if I could ever have the vitality and energy that my Second Life Zanelle has? Some women my age are still vibrant and working hard in their sixties.  They direct movies and sing in Vegas.  They write books and organize wild life programs.   I am still very confused about who I am and what I want to do.   Zanelle in Second Life helps me sort it all out.