Crimsonbutterfly's Open Salon Blog

I Should Have Blogged, But Didn't Now I Regret

Fri, 10 Jun 2011 21:06:52 -0400

I have been back to the old "Land of the free and home of the brave" for sometime now, about 4 months. If you see from my last post my journey was undocumented as a result of my ever couscience lazyness. Being the person that I am, I did have an insane journey which nobody knows (it is not like anyone will read it) about since I am an unholy lazy person for my whole year and a half stay in the "Land of the Morning Calm". The past is the past I will recap events when my memory and my desires run its course into that direction but for now I will just write for the sake of it.

I had a plan before I ever touched this dreaded place we call a country, run by theives in the land of red, white and blue. The plan in Korea was for my ambitious self to aquire saving and work my way through college there. Why? New Jersey or better yet America is a putrid whore of its glory beauty it was back in the 1960s. Besides now that I am back, I can clearly see why I did not want to return (more on that later). But the challenge was too strenous and just too much work. One being I had to pass as a wonderous consequor of the Korea languange. While my Korean did drastically improve with the diligent efforts in doing Langauge Exchange Lessons and speaking Korean every chance I can get, my Korean could not reach the deapth of comprehending articles about politics and health care. In addition, even though I saved more money than any of my friends in the same Teaching program I did not have enough to afford tution, room and board, a cell phone, food, clothes , transportation and anything else. On top of that it seemed like most of the appying students seem to from China, no Every one of them was from China. Some of the top Universities also seem to discriminate against Korean American because of their birth right. Other Universities questioned my transcript just because it said "College" not Univeristy. According to Korea the word "College" refers to two year degree schools, meaning Community College which reads failers in their eyes. With all these issues running against me and the thought that I would be taught by a professor who most likely knew less about the English Langauge or English Literature than me, unless I was by some miracle chosen for the elite schools felt demeaning.

So I took my ass back to the overcrowded, self rightious and spoiled people of New Jersey. Now that I am back I can only say I find this place dispicable. Mostly for the people maybe because I am always surrounded by naive and narrasistic people I once called friends. The few I do respect as friends, that would be one or two people, I can see feeling the same, but will never leave here for the fact that they can't bear change too well. The ones that do manage to get away even for a few miles or across the country I miss dearly because there, within their eyes you can feel humanity. I hate that my " so called friends", these ignorant fucks I am left with, have not changed one bit. If they did change they changed for the worse in that I could not find any redeamable qualities about them. A lot of them have fallen too much into a life of hedonism and while I do adore hedonism myself, as I have played too much in Korea, I know very well you have to work to play. I worst part is, even though I hate them apart of me still wants to be apart of them, just for the sake of belonging. I know fully well too that even if I was with them, enjoying their company, I still would not relate to them and understand their constant cackling laughfter and humor at complete nonesense like laughing at a lamp or remebering that time when (insert person) was drunk and stupid because yes, falling over and eating being a retard while you are on whatever is not universal. Either that or they must regall their stories of when they kissed (insert idoitic but remotely good looking white boy). The supposed guy friends I knew of either have changed drastically or just changed enough so that I cannot tell if they did, leaving them the same. Mostly I just see that they have manage to use their dicks to aquiring a woman or an entire bag of hoes. One had the misfortune in thinking entering into the marines was going to "save" him then came back wanting a pity party when he knew full on he desired to use his aggression to kill. What did you expect? America does not want to save you, they want to use you by convincing your testosterone can beat war and become a patroit. Besides punching me and emotionally battering me before you left will not convice this woman that you were ever a worth human being in the first place. Then there are stories of darwinism taking place as aquintinence I knew thought not wearing a seat belt or running a highway was a worthy idea. Makes me think, if I am wrong in thinking these people are not taking their lives to their full advantage because at least they are somewhat happy and have relationships. God get me out of here.

Leaving In Two Weeks: A Few Words

Sat, 18 Jul 2009 22:07:05 -0400

It doesn’t matter how many days goes by or how many stars pass the sky because I feel worthless no matter what happens. I might be going to Korea in two weeks, which I am delighted and very excited for but it does not take away from the sorrow that I feel now. When I leave I will know that not a lot of people will care. Oh sure they will say they care but the honest truth is they will miss you for few days at the most but they will not care. I wanted to leave with the fact that many will miss me but the fine truth is that nobody will and that’s ok.

The hardest part for me is what I lost this year and what I will be leaving behind. What I lost this year cannot be explained because I have already tried to explain it and it has failed. I have apologized, I have grieved, and I have realized my ignorant mistakes. However that does not change the past or excuse me for what I have done. I also have lived with the fact that people will not forgive. I maybe hated, I might be the girl in the back of someone’s mind who he or she wants to take a rifle or a knife to but I will leave with dignity.

I am taking this trip not as an escape, ok maybe an escape but I am taking this trip as a step to the future and myself. I may come home to find everything completely changed but I am going away to make myself a different being. I don’t give a shit anymore for the people who hate me but I love dearly for the people who still live to see me as a kind and respectful person. If anyone one who does hates me, loathes me, kind of despises me, I love you still even if you don’t. Why lives hating anyone?

Come to my party and live life. Love you all !!

The Real Story Of Our Medical System

Wed, 15 Jul 2009 17:07:15 -0400

Part of the Ad got cut off (on the left it the following)-

"Life Is Full Of Pricks"

While walking through the NYC subways I ran across this messaged scrolled across an AD for Showtime's Nurse Jackie. I love the show but the message is even better since it is so true. "Life is a Prick" when your dealing with America's Health Care system right now. I hope our government or Obama does something so that if I do end up with a terminal Illness I will recieve treatment and not a amount of paperwork as well as unpayable bill. You know this issue is a problem when you see something like this.

Guinness World Record's Strongest Vagina

Thu, 9 Jul 2009 21:07:50 -0400

Yea I do not know where to start with this but over in Russia a woman named, Tatiata Kozhevnikova, has the strongest vagina ever according to Guinness World Records. I didn’t even know there was a category for this in the Guinness World Records but apparently she picked this up “After [she] had a child, [her] intimate muscles got unbelievably weak. [she] read books on Dao and learned that ancient women used to deal with this problem using wooden balls, [she] looked around, saw a Murano glass ball and inserted it in my vagina. It took me ages to get it out!” Not kidding she put a giant glass ball into her va jay jay and then preceding to do more. Tatiata ended up breaking the record by picking up a 31 pound (14 kg) glass ball with her lady parts.

Yea I bet her husband is thrilled to get into the sack with her! She can literally break his dick inside there. Above is a fantastic demonstration of her “strengths” in this video with her golden vagina pants.

Wonder Girls: Koreans Try To Break To The Western Market

Thu, 9 Jul 2009 20:07:18 -0400

I am big music fan who listens to a vast array of music from The Cure to The Black Eye Peas and even Rancid. I try to listen to Korean music because I know that Korean pop is a big deal. When I read an article on the web somewhere specifically in Entertainment Weekly’s, “Jonas Brothers' tour openers the Wonder Girls: Will they conquer America?” I kind of found myself proud that Korea is trying real hard to be mainstream with the Western market, finally some Asians in the United States media that’s not porn or Kung Fu.

The group of girls called, “Wonder Girls” with the song titled “Nobody” is actually pretty catchy and stylistically cool with even a 1940’s American theme. They are currently touring with the less talented version of Hanson, Jonas Brothers, to make it in America. Although their song is pretty catchy I really don’t believe their going to capture the western market with the single, “Nobody” because their style of music, the Korea popish sound, does not sound like what is on the charts right now. Simply they are not American enough. What I know is that these girls work diligently. According to my very Korean mother who reads Korean news everyday they have been training to be pop stars since their adolescence and tried to keep up with their studies as much as their career interests. Since Koreans are hard workers I know that to me true. However I believe their sound isn’t enough to carry them over to the western market. In addition, the whole girl band and boy band thing hasn’t really hit it big in America since the 1990s and early 2000 so I am not sure if a girl band is a good thing in the western market for the Koreans right now.

What they should do is try to get one of the top rappers, such as Kayne West or TI to be apart of their songs so they might get some airtime on the radio. Also maybe an American producer as an aid to their band might work such as Timberland but I know it cost. I don’t believe on their own The Wonder Girls can make it. But I really want them to because Asians deserve some good press these days with Kim Jong Ill trying to nuke the world. I wish them the best, really. Korean Pride Y’all.